9:32 First call - I was still sleeping. The phone number was not in service. Go back to sleep
9:50 Second call - Still sleeping. Call Raj, he sounds iffy. Not sketchy, just flakey. I confirm with him the rates, and everything, tell him I'll be there in an hour, and set my snooze for just ten more minutes.
9:58 Agency calls - Apparently Raj called them. He cancelled. Glad I hadn't gotten out of bed yet. Go back to sleep.
10:03 Alex calls - Yes, I had managed to fall asleep in those 5 minutes. Oh well. It's been a week since we've talked. It's been a week since I've talked to anyone. I've been flying under the radar for the past few days. Don't know why, I'm finding social things exhausting. For the sake of the friendship, I invite Alex over for pancakes. I told him there was a pretty good chance I'd get called in to work though.
10:36 Agency calls - there are two calls lined up for me. Dave and Scott. Call Dave first, it's a no go, he's looking for a black girl. Fine. Call Scott, it's a no go, he's looking for an asian. I say to Alex, "Too bad I'm just a little white girl."
"Alright little white girl, lets make some pancakes," He replies.
I phone the agency back and let them know.
10:52 Agency calls - Apparently Raj has changed his mind and wants to see me after all. I phone him, and tell him I'll be there in a little over an hour. I put Alex in charge of making pancakes, and I go do my make up. Yesterdays hair will have to do.
12:01 Text from Agency asking me to call Raj - I'm just pulling up to the corner where his house should be, but isn't. I call him he tells me that he has to go get money. I'm not concerned about that. If that's the case, I'm going to start the clock as soon as I find his house. He's insisting it's the pink house on the corner, but the house on the corner is brown. Aggravating. I tell him to walk out to the sidewalk so I can find him, then wait for a couple minutes then decide, fuck this and get back in my car. I call the agency, explain the situation, and they put him in the bad book. They give me another number to try.
12:08 - Try this other number, goes straight to voicemail. Typical avoidance tactic.
12:09 - Andrew calls. Wants to know what's up. Awkward. I keep it short, and tell him I'm driving
12:11 - Try the number again. Voicemail again. Phone agency and let them know that it's a no go. This is not uncommon.
And then the lull. Mid-afternoons are always dead. I did a little shopping, then went to yoga. I'm back doing yoga all the time, well my schedule is yoga, yoga, swim, break. And repeat. I like it :) There's a call waiting for me when I get out.
3:51 - Call new number. Discuss rates and services. He does not want to pay for GFE. Sorry buckaroo.
3:54 - Call and book off for a little while. I'm supposed to go for dinner with a friend who I really want to get to know better, but I'm just feeling so run down and tired, I call her and cancel. I feel really bad. I went home, made dinner and napped.
5:37 - Booked back on.
7:00 - No calls.
9:00 - No calls.
11:00 - No calls. Come on Team! It's saturday! What's going on?
11:46 - Agency calls, she warns me that this guy has trouble with the english language. I hate getting warnings. I like forming my own opinions. I phone the guy and he def has problems with the english language. I don't particularly mind, but if I can't clearly get the address, forget it. I don't book.
11:54 - Agency gives me another one. I call, and in the amount of time for me to return his call, he already has another girl on the way. But he likes the sound of me way better. He tries to cancel with her, but can't. It's a no go.
12:09 - Another call to try, Dan. I phone Dan. Dan is actually Paul, and Paul wants to book for tomorrow. Paul doesn't actually want to book, he's just saying that to be nice. Probably isn't impressed that I called him Dan. Girl at the agency is very sorry.
12:14 - Agency calls, Bambi was out on a call, and although the guy was nice, she didn't feel she was right for him. She gave him some of his money back and left. Would I be able to go see this guy? Seriously? What's his issue? No, I don't want someone elses rejects! Sorry!
12:49 - I still have two hours of potential work, but based on my day, I'm callin 'er quits. What a retarded day. I made NO money for all of that BS. Lame.
Alison,
ReplyDeleteI have met you. I'm one of those random people that you have revealed your secret identity to when you are convinced there is zero chance of being discovered. I'm sure there's more just like me, who you have disclosed your real self. You reminded me of a little girl holding a big secret, giggling and excited to find a safe way to share it. I'm honestly drawn to your blog like a moth to a flame for some inexplicable reason. After a particularly shocking post I will often decide to never visit again, but then a few weeks later.....
Your posts affect me at so many levels I can barely begin to describe my feelings after reading the stream of consciousness you leave on your page. I'm often entertained (yes you are funny), worried, saddened, enlightened, revolted, and occasionally even seduced by the person you portray in your blog. I believe the words to be honest and genuine, an accurate portrait of the girl you are.
My perspective is so different from many of your readers. I've seen you; I can visualize you, you are real to me. I immediately noticed you when you came into the departure area. You are a very seductive creature and it's evident in the way you walk, in the playful glances you toss indiscriminately around the room, and all the indescribable features and movements that somehow make a woman like you different. You're beautiful, and you looked at me for but a moment that appeared at first to be a statement of your awareness of your power over me, followed by a softness I can only exlain as a request for validation.
I have never used the services of a prostitute but I am a man and have fantasized about it as much as the next guy. And although perceived by everyone to be a successful and normal guy, I have often question why men have such uncontrollable impulses and have more than once felt that I have betrayed the person I love by my thoughts or actions related to other beautiful women. If it were a switch that I could turn off I would. I guess what I'm saying (and I know you won't like this) my heart goes out to you and I despise the men who are almost my own reflection, who compel beautiful women to sacrifice something very personal to a man they do not know. But I know they can't help it, it's almost impossible.
I have developed a deep desire to try to protect you and take care of you now that I've come to know you through your words. Please don't let anyone take something from you that you can never get back. There's a saying that we all need to live an honorable life so that when we get old, we can enjoy it for a second time. I've made some crazy mistakes that have hurt people I love and now I try to project forward to contemplate my view of the previous five years. Will I like myself? Will I have brought happiness to the lives of those I love? Will I wake up and feel at peace? Based on my track record, I doubt it, but I keep fighting the impossible battle.
Thank you for being so very honest. We all see a bit of ourselves in your words. It's not often we get to see the soul of a person by their writing and when we do it scares us because we see so much of ourselves. You are incredibly bright, beautiful and articulate.
I once fell in love with a character in a book and missed her for weeks after reading the last page. I'm drawn to you in the same way. You've touched many of us by your writing.
Please keep safe. You are a very special person and are capable of doing incredible things most of us are not.
Crazy comes in different colors.
ReplyDeleteI know who you are. Your post has moved me so much, I'm at a loss for words. Thank You. Thank you for your encouragement and your support, and for keeping your promise. I don't know what else to say. I can't explain how much your post means to me.
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