Make Hay

    I hung out with Andrew last night. We played with some of his fetishes. They're not mine, but they were kind of fun. I tried some new things. He's got his own agency now. He's almost given up on trying to recruit me, but not fully. He knows I'm staying firm.
      We help each other out with work though from time to time. He's always there for me when I need a safety call, and will drive me when he can if I'm feeling unsure about things. I played receptionist for him last night too. He was very impressed with my phone manners and the way I subtly chased the sale. He wants to get me a phone so I could be his permanent receptionist. He would pay me $10 a call and the calls take no time at all. I would have made $50 last night. It's something to think about. I wouldn't go out on his calls, just book them for other girls.
       I like the conversations we have. It's good to have someone to talk shop with. We talk about the laws and the loop holes, and cops. Stories we've heard about other girls, and things to watch out for. He teaches me things, and encourages me with respect to other things. I talk to the girls at the agency some times, but other than that I work pretty much completely alone. I value what he has to say.
       I've been re-thinking not doing more freaky shit at work. I keep thinking of this opportunity I've landed myself in. Never again will I have this kind of time, money, and freedom to do what ever I want. The problem is I don't know what I want, and truthfully, I'm seriously ashamed to admit that. So I feel like I should use this time to make money if nothing else. For tuition, or a downpayment or who knows. I have no idea what my earning potential is, but if I did offer more services, or become more specialized as that man on the airplane said, I know I have huge potential. I also want to get new pictures taken. I think the pictures I have are very well done, but perhaps as a gift to a boyfriend or something. I don't know how awesome they are for this job. They're very classy and tasteful, but in each of them, I'm kind of positioned like I'm hiding how fat I am. The thing is, I'm not fat. I need pictures that show off my assets a little more.  Bottom line, I need to work harder at selling myself. Make hay when the sun is shining!
     My reluctance about doing kink comes from giving too much of myself to the client. Being Alison is work, and some times I question how well I do it. Often Realme shines through. I feel like if I were to engage in the extra things like fetishes, it would be Alison to the extreme, and I wonder what kind of effect that would have on me. As you know, I'm super cautious about becoming jaded or biter, and my fear is that it will sneak up on me. I think I'm doing well so far though. I don't hate men, I don't feel exploited or victimized by The Man, or The System, I don't feel like I'm forced to do anything I don't want to do. EVER.      Further reluctance comes from the fact that I would charge considerably more for fetishes. Some I would be able to do no problem, but others I don't have a lot of experience with and I wouldn't feel right charging so much if what they receive isn't great. Role Playing for example. I suck at that. Ha. I get embarrassed just thinking about it. Naughty Librarian/Nurse/Nun/School teacher... I don't know how to do that! I think it's ridiculous and silly. And there's so much out there that I don't even have a clue about. Like that whole eating panties thing, I had no idea about that. And like I said, no amount of extra money would get me to eat my day old gotch. I completely get why a guy would find it hot, but I find it just disgusting.
       I'm going to email my boss with my thoughts, and try to get some advise, perhaps re-write my bio, and see what she says. I'll keep you in the loop.